Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Someday...

he will not need me as much, and I will be sad.
Someday...
he will prefer to snuggle Daddy, or Grandma or Auntie, and I will be sad
Someday...
he will push me away when I ask for a kiss, and I will be sad
Someday...
he will sleep all night and I will wake up at 3 A.M, and I will be sad.
Someday...
he will run to someone else for comfort, and I will be sad.
Someday...
he will want to stop nursing, and I will be sad.
Someday...
he will be a big boy who doesn't need his Mommy, and I will be sad.
But today...
I am everything to him, and I am tired!

These past couple of weeks have been pretty hard for me. Peanut Boy has been teething like crazy and had an awful bout of diarrhea. He has been nursing like a newborn and it has been getting to me. A few night ago, he was up EVERY 2 HOURS!!!! And nothing would get him back to sleep, except nursing. So this weekend I decided it was Daddy's turn to do night time, and of course PB slept all night!!! Then the next night when I took over again he was up 3 times! I just keep telling myself that he won't be a baby forever and I really don't want to look back on this time and regret that I didn't savor every moment. It is HARD to be a mommy, but it's all I've ever wanted to be, and it is the best thing that I have ever done. I love my PB so much and I will try to soak up all his cute, snuggely babyness now because I know, someday, he will not be a baby anymore. And I will be sad. But for now, I will be happy, and enjoy every minute.